Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Aren't you feeling better?

The few people with whom I speak from my job site have asked me this question in regard to my taking 4 months off from work.

Hmm.... well yes and no. As far as my general health, yes! there is definitely some improvement, I'm consciously eating better, I'm exercising more, I'm losing a little weight and generally feeling a bit more rested.

As far as my HS, well no... I'm still having outbreaks and they still hurt like the dickens and it's moved back to my face again! Now I have found that my HS tends to show on my face as more a result of concentrated and intense stress. Since my doctor is having to cut back on my steroid injections, I pretty much have to live with the outbreaks on my face... yuck!

As far as my stress relief from work...absolutely NOT. I have been out of the office for a month now and my place of employment has been dragging out the approval process for my leave...which in turn has not helped my stress level.

So I'm now 6 weeks into my leave, I still have not achieved the benchmark I had wanted to achieve by now and my motivation level is still not where I would like it to be... I still have 10 weeks to go.

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Hidranenitus Suppurativa

Dammit what a long name! Most people just call it HS. It's what I have. It's why I am here, I guess....home, I mean... on a medical leave.

Yeah, I'm home on a 4 month medical leave from work to heal and create a more healthy me. So far, I'm only doing marginally well at it.

My fiance bought us a WiiFit to encourage us both to pay attention to our bodies and focus on losing some weight. It's working...kind of. I started so "gung ho" and proceeded to injure my knees to the point of barely walking... dumb move....yeah I know. He also bought us an eliptical machine on which to exercise.n So far I've been pretty intermittent about using it....pfft, I suck.

Anyway, this HS is a bitch to have. It hurts. Basically I get absesses or "boils" on my skin in the "warm and fat" places on my body. Right now it's pretty much anywhere! I've been told by my doctor that I'm one of the "lucky" ones because for me it also appears on my face.

It's a not fun disease and there are many theories on how to cure/ arrest it. I'm in the process of trying several, the main one being weight loss. The main problem is that is that I'm lazy as hell! I keep telling myself what I should be doing and really don't follow through with regularity. It's so sad.

Anyway, if you are wondering what HS is all about, go here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hidradenitis_suppurativa

It's the best explaination that I have found so far...

First real and true blog post

Well, now I have a blog. I have been threatening to make one!

First of all... just so you know, this blog is kinda personal. So if you know me just a little, I may say things that may surprise you to know about me. If you DO know me, it may not surprise you, but may make you concerned. Don't be...

I just want to speak my mind and hopefully some kind stranger will comment and possibly give me the clarity only an outsider can give... LOL or not.

If I gave you this address, obviously I don't mind if you read this and comment. In fact I would rather enjoy it if you did. If you just happened to find it...hey you go ahead and comment too!

I'm just working some stuff out in my head and hopefully will come to some ideas on how to act on the "stuff" in my life...